Who's going to get attached first?

Being committed is one thing, feeling the love in it is another.

sometimes i just hope everything would have just end right now.
negative as i would be, i feel like ending my life and not to care anymore.
when problems arouse, people tend to run away and throw all shits to you.
if no one has ever sound it out to me, i never knew you did that all along.
you never tried to solve and you left a pile of shit for us to flush for you?
you are very lucky that i do not have very good memory.

memory lapses that i have, i don't really remember what happened in the past.
what happened yesterday seems to have never happened at all.
im just like a new born baby to everyday.
i never had woke up with a HAIZ, never woke up with a today is a shit day.
i never did that, never...

make me rely and trust on you please.
im not quick to trust and let someone inside.
show me some dignity in you and not to make yourself looking like a fool.
you're my friend,

wasn't really pleased with humans nowadays.
they are getting on my nerves and thinking that they are OH RIGHT!

i was on bus 67 on the way home from school.
this MAN in front of me was terrible. 
i was boarding the bus and there were still around 5 people trying to get on the bus.
i saw with my own very eyes that there are still some spaces at the rear of the buses.
i said to the man in front of me, "excuse me, could you walk in a little bit. the people behind a pushing in and im feeling quite uncomfortable."
he turned and looked at me and shifted A WEE BIT in.
he is trying to irritate me.
i fumed up, i said excuse me loudly and cut across him to a larger place.
i know my large crumpler bag whacked him hard with my laptop in it.
in jerked a little and gave space to my bag instead of me. 
being childish, he came in and nudged me making me shifting to the back allowing more passengers to board the bus.
i know i am in the wrong as well.
but, he shouldnt have done that when my crumpler and i can move in swiftly, why cant he?
perhaps he hadn't take buses for ages.

.......

so school started and i hit big on it. WOOOHOO! 
my class mates were better than last sem and i love my CATS class, they are supercalifragilisticexpialidocious.
finally found a bunch of nutcase who i can clique really well in poly.
it's only the starting so i dont know about the back part. 
oh well, WASH OFF THE NEGATIVE THINKING!

today had sports and wellness module, which is something like PE! im in the soccer team.. oh my tian, i can tell you that i played lousily but the coach keep encouraging me. i love the coach la. i never appreciate soccer and now i guess i DO! WOOHOO!! and i told my male friends that after i learn soccer i gotta kick their balls if they agitate me. hahaha, mean o' me.

im so so so glad for wei ni and jia wen getting back tgt closer once again?
ahahaha, cos i felt that during secondary  they are a lil bit restricted?
well, im not sure just a casual remark. :D

geraldine, u can try blogging in cheeena as well, it's fun but taxing..
just like normal talking.

我会不停的笑。
眼泪不会留下。
最近我过得还好，后来的你好不好？
希望你知道我从没走掉，
对不起，回忆跑回我脑里。